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What have I just read My head is spinning and buzzing with thoughts And wonderI am going to repeat something all the ther readers said John the narrator is not nice John is not likable At the beginning he looks like a sort Hebrew magic amulets of unmovable monolith a blockf self confidence and arrogance Everything is superficial at the beginning it s about his looks and those f the people around him it s about casual sex and pleasure it all seems selfish and useless Through all the book though we see John falling apart his half lies are unveiled his mind is revealed and his heart is shattered The self assured John f the beginning Being There of the book the stud the irresistible sexn legs young man shows all his fears and self hatred John doesn t belong any where He feels his Latino heritage sets him apart from the rest and he s secretly afraid that people think less هذه بلادنا: الجواء of him becausef it he refuses to speak in tongues in his Church and he looks at that community with detachment and skepticism being part Buddha's Brain: The Practical Neuroscience of Happiness, Love, and Wisdom of his Church keeps him apart from thether students at school his sexuality doesn t conform since he has sex with plenty f girls but he gives his body to his gay best friend Nathan the nly guy he s attracted to he d like to be close to his brother but his brother is not interested since he is not very good at his father s job he believes he s a disappointment to him he doesn t apply to college because he knows he won t be accepted he doesn t play football and is scolded for it because he knows he won t be good enough Most f all John doesn t love himselfJohn Beloved like the apostle Jesus loved Nathan loves him in a spiritual way and in a sexual way John the serial seducer f women with a girlfriend and plenty n the side gives himself to Nathan he lets Nathan have sex with him he submits to his friend As The Story Goes On story goes n we see with surprise and a sort f dread is that John is looking for humiliation and through this humiliation it seems he wants to expiate for something The book is this long voyage from feeling unworthy f everything to feeling worthy f love It s such a painful voyage It was as if John was doing everything against common sense dismissing every unce f self preservation It was so frustrating it was unpleasant We want ur heroes to be strong blameless confident In a very perverse way John is also like that but he doesn t see it for a long timeJohn can see the hurt in The War at Home: One Family's Fight Against PTSD other people s eyes and he tries to make it better He sees people in danger and he tries to protect them He needs help and he trusts the right people to help him He sees injustice and abuse and he s not indifferent He genuinely loves Nathan in the most selfless and pure way he cherishes him even if he has sex withther people ther guys even if he s capable f some degree f love for someone else he s given his heart nly to Nathan who loves him back in the same selfless and pure way Atom Heart John BelovedAll the fooling around was hard to back in the same selfless and pure way Atom Heart John BelovedAll the fooling around was hard to from a romantic reader point f view but John is also an adolescent n the verge Ten Thousand Goddam Cattle: A History of the American Cowboy in Song, Story and Verse of adulthood He hasn t mastered his desires yet he doesn t even know where they come from and insteadf repressing them he explores them and wants the readers to know about this telling everything in a sort Set Theory, Logic and Their Limitations of clinical way It s not always heartfelt it s not arousing He forces the reader to be there with him as if assisting to a surgery procedure Look at what s happening Look at what I ve done Look at how fucked up I am how fucked up it can be He s not asking forur sympathies it s as if he wants witnesses John kept me there unwilling displeased frustrated worried afraidThere are many themes in this book coming f age sexual rientation religious bigotry sexual abuse There s rape And there s love as a uest as a goal as a giftI don t know if I d recommend this book If you need to be head ver heels for your protagonist maybe you ll find this book insufferable If you like delicate romance with a straight path to happiness you won t probably even consider this book as romance If you like hot sex to make you dream and desire you ll be probably disappointed and maybe even repelled If you read it despite these warnings and you don t like it blame it n the story I don t think it would be right to blame it The Stringbean Murders on John I LOVE THIS BOOKBut it is the most useless and the most helpless review you could find So skip it I m not going to talk about. Rainbow Award winner Atom Heart John Beloved chronicles the livesf two boys who become friends at age thirteen The story is told by eighteen year ld John who uie. This book Because I just don t want It ll stay with me I m not going to share I m selfish want It ll stay with me I m not going to share I m selfish I m not able to deliver well structured and reasonable reviews They are too emotional and totally meaningless to be goodJust a few words It is about Nathan The best friend f John And it is about John A lot Stricken (Asphalt Cowboys, of about John And about somether bad and good guys And about the world family religion sex lust church friendship belief music life And love Ah forget it actually it is about much much Told from the John s POV
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